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4/22 (Sometime after midnight)
Hello reader, long time. Well, it feels like a long time, but I just posted a few days ago, although that post was in the works for a while. Just finished four grilled cheese sandwiches and its right after midnight. Can you believe it? And I just had a conversation with Alexandria about how eating after 9pm causes indigestion. Looks like I will be up late tonight. That is all fine and well. I just got home from a concert and for a while my mind was panicking about routine. How fast can I get to bed so I can get up early so I can ride my bike and eat my oatmeal and read my books? Time, will there be enough time - time, I’m always running empty on time… I thought about this conundrum of fitting the routine in and I gave up. Took too much energy. It’s good to let go of routine sometimes, loosen up, go where the wind blows. I’ll just stay up a little late and eat and work on my blog. My goal was one post a month, but I beat that, so I was thinking one post a month, but I beat that too… Lanae says challenge myself, do two posts a week, so that’s the next goal.

The concert I went to tonight was for Ari Lennox, and she’s now tied with Rochelle Jordan as my favorite show this year. There’s just something about a Black girl with bangs that’s killer. And Ari is so sweet to her fans and overwhelmingly beautiful and can sing, like really sing! Usually I’m not at the front for concerts, but this time I was right there, I could almost touch her. During her performance of Soft Girl Era this super fan was invited on stage, his name was Jafar I think, and I don’t know if he snuck into rehersals or something but he was insane, hitting choreo, hitting notes, I’m like, get this man a deal and an agent ASAP! Good for him.

Wearing my long green sweater rn, it’s comfy. I put my hair into a puff. I’ve been a bit busy the past weeks. Weekend of April 10th was fun, I went on a solo date to Saigon Bistro, and of course I got my garlic noodles. then went to Lux Coffee and did some writing there. The barista was tall and had a piercing right in his cheek, a sparkling gem that I couldn’t stop looking at. Very handsome, I wish him the best in life. I thought I spotted my coworker there but by the time I got up to check he had disappeared.

4/22 (7:50am)
Good morning. Somehow I got up at 6:30am after going to bed at 2am. I wonder how I will fair today? Right now the Bloom energy drink is carrying me, but that will probably fade by lunch. My routine wasn’t interrupted. I managed to get in a 20 minute bike workout and play some Dragon Quest 8 this morning. It’s a turn based RPG and as a Pokemon fan, I find that comforting. Turn based RPGs are way less stressful then the action ones. I have time to think about my decisions, or make no decision at all, just watch the monsters on the screen hop up and down. Which this game has some ridiculous monsters by the way. My favorite so far is “One Knight Stand.” Also, it’s funny have saves work in this game. You have to go a Church and give a “confession.” They’re committed to the bit, the priest even asks something like, “what memory card would you like to save your confession to, my child?” It’s so silly.

Been feeling reflexative lately. I do quite like it here in Phoenix, probably because of the people. There was a time 2 years ago that I was deciding between Phoenix and Palo Alto. I picked Phoenix, but I was nervous. When I spent the summer in Palo Alto, I’d check the temperatures in Phoenix and see that it was 115+ degrees. I can’t lie, I would think, I’m glad I’m not interning there! But despite the heat, it’s been great. Maybe it’s ridiculous, but I still get surprised when people want to hang out with me. I was so happy because Jordyn invited me skating last Friday, it was fun (even though I had just started my period which made me a little crampy). Sometimes I don’t think I’m a desirable person to hang out with? Which my therapist says I should stop thinking because it isn’t true. Maybe she is right?

Some songs in my head rn:
Being Productive, Subsonic Eye

This song has been on repeat for like a year, I should learn it on my bass.

Soft Girl Era, Ari Lennox

I loved Ari’s performance of this song at her show.

That’s Life, Luna Li

Luna Li makes pretty music.

Stars, Hum

I like the part where he says She thinks she missed the train to Mars / she’s out back counting stars.

Hello Love, Jessie Ware

A song that almost makes me feel in love.

17, The tiva

I’m so glad the Tiva is back, one of my fav bands from SXSW way back when.

Naka, tricot

I should learn Japanese. The only lyrics I can recall from this song is wasureta and nagai nagai nagai nagai

Sugar Honey, Good Girl

I like this little group and I think they should be famous. Smooth Alternative R&B.

Lost, Frank Ocean

I think everybody has had this song stuck in their head before.

I might ask Claude to go through blog and make a playlist of all the songs I’ve mentioned before. Somebody remind me to do that.

Band practice is going well. This is my reminder that next time we have to do a warmup. My bass teachers says do scales and a song together, I’m thinking seven nation army. But I’m so bad at scales haha… Guitarist says if I bring him some lyrics he can add the melodies. So I guess I’m trying to write a song? It feels cringe and I have no idea how to write hooks. Who are some of my favorite song writers? Mitski (If night is like you punched a hole into tomorrow / I would **** the hole all night long), Black Thought (The entirety of Clock With No Hands), Pavement (Well, show me a word that rhymes with Pavement / And I won’t kill your parents and roast them on a spit), Sobs (I wanna see you wear your heart on your sleeve / For once without deceit / Why can’t it be more?), Radiohead (Subterranean Homesick Alien), Failure (Apocalypse Blooms) etc, etc etc. What do they all have in common? They write from the heart. It’s scary, but I must open my heart up for once.

4/22 12:21 PM (Lunchtime)
Solo lunching today. Ok so were was I. What have I been up to. Y’know, I’m starting to get really averse to clutter. Is that just a part of aging? #thisis25.

Continuing my recap of last last weekend. After Saigon Bistro and Lux Coffee, I met up with Lanae, Joyce, and Maya at King Pigeon Thrift Store. It’s been on my list of places to visit, not just for the clothes and whatnot but because they do free concerts almost every week, and I’m trying to tap into the local music scene and know all of the hole-in-the-wall spots here. The bands performing that day were Will O’ Wisp and Marcy’s Letter, both local to Phoenix. Will O’ Wisp was first, they looked to be quite young and I’m pretty sure their parents were in the audience recording. I saw great potential, unfortunately their drummer was absent (apparently he had an asthma attack that day. Poor guy!), I did wonder how they would sound with him there. The bassist seemed very new, but played with good timing and confidence. The next band was Marcy’s Letter. They came off as more experienced than the first band, and I think they have the potential to break out of the Phoenix scene. The bassist played some cool, elaborate basslines and her outfit was super cute. I talked to the owner about how they find bands, and he says he just checks his DMs and listens to whoever shoots them a message. Maybe my quasi-band can perform there one day? After the show we got food at some burger joint whose name I can’t recall, I just remember there being a bit of a draft. Dinner was nice, all I have to say is, Joyce is funny when she is tipsy! #watergate

So all that was last last week, now last week, I went to Myspace and Club Contact with Lanae, Maya, and Lanae’s friend Bri (?). The city was putting on free concerts for VIVA PHX, a weeklong music festival happening downtown. Myspace is another venue on my list, and it was definetly worth the visit. It’s about as hole-in-the-wall as a place can get, with quirky artwork everywhere and the general aura of a basement. The acts for the night were Smooth Hands, Dreamboat, and SUNTWIST. My favorite act was Smooth Hands, I liked their exhurberant positvity and crowd interactions, and the bassist was so groovy, and I was watching his hands and they were moving everywhere, I was impressed. Then we went to Club Contact, although I was running out of energy so I was quite tired, but it was a good vibes, the lights were low and red, and I saw MRCH, who I saw maybe a year ago at Rebel Lounge. They’ve since released a new EP which they played a few songs from, has an omninous sound and interesting build up. They remind me of Kimbra.

I guess that’s everything I’ve been up to, had some fun weekends with friends. I think I need to stay in the house for a weekend, but there’s too much going on and I feel like I have to experience it all. I’m glad I have a car. Actually I replaced the tires on it recently which cost soooo much money. I’m boycotting discount tire.

4/23 (Evening)
Songwriting is so cringe. I wrote a song with no hook. Actually it’s just a bad poem. Then I had lunch with Joyce and Maya at Saigon Bistro and got inspired to write a song about a beautiful woman. It is also cringe. How do people do this? It feels omega cringe!

I got a pedicure with Stacie today, long overdue. You don’t want to know what my feet were looking like. It’s all better now though.

4/24 (lunchtime)
Once again having lunch with Maya and Joyce at the office. We are a consistent trifecta. I had too many fries. It’s been so long since I’ve just sat and ate a huge amount of fries, and honestly, it doesn’t feel great, I feel like I want to lay on my bed and explode. So bloated, so bleh. Whatever, it’s Friday!